woah... where's the light switch?

i'm not a superstitious guy but still, i'm kinda afraid of the dark.
it's all about fear of the unknown.
ok fine. it does sound superstitious.

i always hear/read certain people who can see/sense these things.
naturally, i'm skeptical about that.
well, that's because i've never really had a true paranormal disturbance.
most of the time of those implied disturbance would be just my head playing around.
who the hell wouldn't get nerved by that oh-my-god-wtf-is-that!!!! stranded, red balloon after watching some weird floating head thriller (not really a horror movie as screamers are never a horror element but just cheap gimmicks), or whatever yet, it seem illogical for some... you get the idea.

between horror movies and games, movies always give the most scare factor.
why? because i can't do anything about anything happened to the protagonist while in games, i could easily lash out my anger and fear on the motherfucker with my epic crowbar/axe/rocket launcher/chainsaw/camera.
stupid directors purge the common sense out of their actors.

between survival horror and psychological horror, the former always give the most fun factor. mostly because i have great confidence in my physical abilities. put me in those zombies situations and i'll just pulp their heads away for the luls instead of fleeing. something goes wrong? god mode lol!
though guns or weapons with limited ammunition would be useless as i am always the trigger happy noob.
might even friendly fire.

between gore and mindfuck (the kind of element that not exactly depicts bodily destruction but rather plays with your sanity and mental realization), i fear more of the latter.

tl;dr, i admit i have a weak mind.
you can workout and training for brute force but i can't just dismiss illogical, not-making-sense kind of phenomenon like, "WHY WOULDN'T YOU JUST DIE???!!!!!!!!!!*STOMPSTOMPSTOMP*" or "HOW DID YOU STICK TO THE CEILI- now where did he g- OMG MY BACK!!!!!1111".
it just doesn't make sense!

and stress does make me wandering off from my priorities.
like exams and assignments. (both are stresses and priorities.)
the actual exams and presentations are always the fun bit.
i just don't really like preparing for them.

always
so
many
obstacles.

suddenly everything is so interesting.