ungrateful little shit

and here i thought it's easier to just swallow the truth and move on instead of continue the facade even though it's pretty much unraveled already.

of course you'll take the easiest way out, you lazy fuck!

nasib baik ada orang ingatkan. kalau tak, derhaka bodoh macam tu je (implying I'm not borderline derhaka already).

best boyfriend is useless boyfriend

what the fuck is wrong with you?!
you can't even be an alarm clock?
can you do anything right?

now, don't waste your time being shitty and useless (save it for later).
just do what you're supposed to do.

you even got the title worng.

you're a weak fuck

do your classes, do your gym.
stop sleeping too late, stop sleeping too long.

have some self control.

sedarlah diri tu sikit. ingat tanggungjawab.
dah tahun enam pun masih bodoh camni ke?

Don't run

I love her.
I wish i could give her everything of mine.
But that would just be unrealistic.
Our is it just me being selfish?

I wish i could have an endless supply of gold jars or a jar with an endless fillings of gold. Well, it doesn't have to be gold. Anything that i can easily sell for money without much work.
That doesn't sound right...
Well, wish i could have a jar that gives suggestions on how to get money without too much risk and management.
Fuck. That doesn't sound right either...
Meh...

I don't know....
I don't know if i couldn't tell her my worries anymore or if i worried too much.

Why you guys no sleep??!

Go to sleep, loved ones!

Useless scum!

Shame on you!

What not to do when your girlfriend is away:
= neglecting her cat
= etc.

Seriously, she already has trust issue regarding people doing her errands.
Don't put yourself in the list of people she should have assigned spy drones when given a grocery list.
Pak Pandir oh Pak Pandir.

And stop omitting details or making white lies.
How are you going to explain about that odd flavor wet food you've bought because you can't recall what the cat likes?
What about lying on the landlady whereabouts just because you couldn't bring yourself to explain your needs to take care of Gary to her?
Or how you delayed going to the pet shop just so you could get a free meal yourself?

Unreliable, selfish, douchebag!

Where art thou?

It doesn't really matter if i knew or not where she's missing.

I still miss her.

Come back

Which is the most saddening, terrifying, disheartening,
Knowing the specifics about somebody you're going to lose, or knowing nothing about it?

Some people, on learning the details, would totally go apeshit thinking about what to do next.
What's next?
To mourn, to celebrate, to console.
Either for themselves or for the goner.
Depends on people.

Some choose to isolate.
Deny.
In denial.
Run away.
Comfort or guilt.

I know I'm rambling nonsense.
Lucky she's going to be away for a little while.

I'll miss you.

Now which one of you is my bodyguard?

Being broke is not so bad.
Not able to eat? I had worse.
No more Internet? Umm... That's is bad... I think... Oh well.
Not being able to go along with your girlfriend on a trip?
FUCK ME
I'm not even talking about paying for her fare. I'm talking about paying for my own! How pathetic is that?

And really, learn to keep track on whose money is whose, numbskull.