penat

penat sangat

i don't know if i was tired, or bored, or just lazy.

or maybe... it's the fucking coffee!!!@111111

tea break!

right now, i feel empty and really lonely.
and i don't really care who filling it. i figure flying back to my family is the best thing i could do right now but what the hell. exams on 10.
i kind of hate myself for deciding to go for boarding school when i was 12.
i was/am so naive with people, i shouldn't had let go of my safety net right then.
i'm glad that i was able to manage but i now realized there were pretty lots of things i have been missing out.
then again, i'm not so sure about things that i could missed out.

well, this does make me realizes, i ought to appreciate the things currently going around me more instead of taking them for granted but then comes another dilemma.
to notice everything is so much hard work (to try would kill me. thinking about trying already makes me want to go to sleep and forget about things.) and to choose which is hard considering my tendency to not care.






maybe i'll just sleep.


btw diachan, i was also pretty bored.
until i realized i have you!
thank you diachan. love you.