being a medical student opens my eyes to stupidity of some people on how can they mislead others by posting "helpful" advises derived from their "observation" of going to clinics often and getting checked by doctors.
pathetic.
on the other hand, being a lazyass, below average medical student who can't remember things that have been learned to deflect those stupid assumptions makes me feel,
pathetic.
it seems like i'm not really all that tough or strong or adamant or whatever when it comes to critiques afterall.
it's just, i don't seem to bother myself enough to care about certain things that has been pointed out.
for example, i just love open source as it let me contribute works without letting my self becoming an arrogant jerk.
if i do, some anon would come say "It's opensource, dumbass." right in my face.
and i wouldn't (couldn't, actually) feel all that bad and able to say "sorry..." without getting my pride scrapped off badly.
well, see how i do care others' opinions?
see how i want somebody to watch my back?
pathetic, ain't it?
sidenotes:
2 kind of people i could open up without all that much difficulties.
strangers and best friends.
strangers because i don't care.
best friends because their opinions matter, and i trust them not to leave me when things went way out of hand.
so far, the former.
don't judge. commitment problem.
yay!!!
i am a stalker!
ok. maybe not in real life.
ok. maybe just that half of myself.
just cyber stalking. nothing more.
real life stalking? can't do sir.
i take pride in my ego.
though the other timid me always tries to ruin that whenever i let my guard down.
so she talks to me, what could i actually reap?
so she hi-ed me back, can i touch her or anything?
so they bagi salam to me. duh... imma fucking oldfag, 2nd year. bak kata mike, "senior terlajak". screw u dude!
so much for all those attention...
what matter most, ME. (and i always have this, urge, to laugh a evil lord laugh. like, MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!)
yes. i dress to appeal MYSELF.
opinions? like I care.
imma weirdo? all MY otherselves call YOU one.
hell, if i can have my dna cloned and modded to become a girl, i would fuck her.
fuck it. i could even go gay for me.
.
.
.
.
.
right...
definitely not that.
whatever. enough with self-gratifying.
i love strawberries.
call me a faggot but those damn berries are so nice, i've decided to have a farm of one.
much better then cherries. those are overrated.
kinda realized that most of my posts look unintelligent and uneducated.
no capitalization (fuck capitalism :P).
short and meaningless.
wtf? all these were written by the sulky, not-yet-showered, bored me.
now what did i've just told ya?
ok. maybe not in real life.
ok. maybe just that half of myself.
just cyber stalking. nothing more.
real life stalking? can't do sir.
i take pride in my ego.
though the other timid me always tries to ruin that whenever i let my guard down.
so she talks to me, what could i actually reap?
so she hi-ed me back, can i touch her or anything?
so they bagi salam to me. duh... imma fucking oldfag, 2nd year. bak kata mike, "senior terlajak". screw u dude!
so much for all those attention...
what matter most, ME. (and i always have this, urge, to laugh a evil lord laugh. like, MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!)
yes. i dress to appeal MYSELF.
opinions? like I care.
imma weirdo? all MY otherselves call YOU one.
hell, if i can have my dna cloned and modded to become a girl, i would fuck her.
fuck it. i could even go gay for me.
.
.
.
.
.
right...
definitely not that.
whatever. enough with self-gratifying.
i love strawberries.
call me a faggot but those damn berries are so nice, i've decided to have a farm of one.
much better then cherries. those are overrated.
kinda realized that most of my posts look unintelligent and uneducated.
no capitalization (fuck capitalism :P).
short and meaningless.
wtf? all these were written by the sulky, not-yet-showered, bored me.
now what did i've just told ya?
i've just realized...
when i feel hate or depressed or extreme envy or extreme jealousy till the point where i want to cut myself...
from all these people, i'll go to "you" to suppress those feelings.
weird enough, things do turns out well the next day.
and just by saying something so simple and so pointless/irrelevant/unrelated can make me feel like i've poured out everything that has been annoyed me.
wish i could give up my life to "you" and all those weird love shit.
damnit!
it's already too late for this fucked up shit.
from all these people, i'll go to "you" to suppress those feelings.
weird enough, things do turns out well the next day.
and just by saying something so simple and so pointless/irrelevant/unrelated can make me feel like i've poured out everything that has been annoyed me.
wish i could give up my life to "you" and all those weird love shit.
damnit!
it's already too late for this fucked up shit.
THE WORLD IS MINE!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!
:P
not really.
but finally finished that project PERFECTLY.
now onto things that matter...
side notes, girls with a bit tanned skin and lighter-colored lipstick (not those flaming lighter. read "fairer". but still as hot. XD) are cute and sexy at the same time!
not really.
but finally finished that project PERFECTLY.
now onto things that matter...
side notes, girls with a bit tanned skin and lighter-colored lipstick (not those flaming lighter. read "fairer". but still as hot. XD) are cute and sexy at the same time!
i seriously have to stop this
this... hacks making thing that's been going on for like 2 weeks.
and it's eating me away.
every aspect of my life.
just stay with those public hacks, would ya?
and besides black ponytails, brunette wavy locks, and blonde pigtails, i've also fallen for blonde bangs.
sadly, most girls here wear tudung.
T_T
but who cares?
.
.
.
.
i do...
wtf?!
5 more years!!!
and things like those alpha male traits and shit?
bollocks.
XD
and it's eating me away.
every aspect of my life.
just stay with those public hacks, would ya?
and besides black ponytails, brunette wavy locks, and blonde pigtails, i've also fallen for blonde bangs.
sadly, most girls here wear tudung.
T_T
but who cares?
.
.
.
.
i do...
wtf?!
5 more years!!!
and things like those alpha male traits and shit?
bollocks.
XD
people don't change...
they just looked like they had.
the metaphor?
take a glass of water.
pour the water into another glass of water.
it's still the same glass of water.
freeze it, it still the same.
boil it, still that same water.
but try to make another guy tells if it's still the same water after the pouring and boiling and freezing without giving them any clue on what had happen.
most likely they'll say, "who cares? i still get to drink it."
:P
the metaphor?
take a glass of water.
pour the water into another glass of water.
it's still the same glass of water.
freeze it, it still the same.
boil it, still that same water.
but try to make another guy tells if it's still the same water after the pouring and boiling and freezing without giving them any clue on what had happen.
most likely they'll say, "who cares? i still get to drink it."
:P
lived another year...
wow.
i really don't have much to say about this new year.
ARRGH!!!
i fucking hate saying/typing/thinking new year new year new year new year
so a year has passed since someoneelse's birthday or anniversary or resolute day or whatever they wanna put it.
then?
maybe just like mike said, i'm socially depressed.
honestly, i don't care.
and i'm saying this with this expression:
-_-............
i feel quite happy with what i have now.
maybe not happy. more like content.
but thanks mike.
you've been such a good talker, it made me wanna think back about being a good listener.
^_^
01/01/10
how i like beautiful numbers arrangement.
AND STOP PESTERING ME FUCKING FLY!!!
go away.
i really don't have much to say about this new year.
ARRGH!!!
i fucking hate saying/typing/thinking new year new year new year new year
so a year has passed since someoneelse's birthday or anniversary or resolute day or whatever they wanna put it.
then?
maybe just like mike said, i'm socially depressed.
honestly, i don't care.
and i'm saying this with this expression:
-_-............
i feel quite happy with what i have now.
maybe not happy. more like content.
but thanks mike.
you've been such a good talker, it made me wanna think back about being a good listener.
^_^
01/01/10
how i like beautiful numbers arrangement.
AND STOP PESTERING ME FUCKING FLY!!!
go away.
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