so mad with myself right now, i feel like ripping my own gut.
but of course, i'm not going to do it for real. or even capable of it.
fuck.
if i passed that one,
you know what? nevermind.
FUCK ME
pathology
suddenly, i wish i can do the exam again.
not because of marks. it's just that, i suddenly realized, if i can't answer those medisl questions, how am i going to have any semblance of a doctor? i would just be another doctor wannabe who leeches other peoples money.
also, those questions, although short and somewhat vague in describing patients' signs and symptoms, somehow intrigued my mind. they've made me open my meds books and search things in the internet just for the answer. and once i've answered them, or even one of them, it feels so satisfying.
and now, i cant help but sift through some of the questions and attempt them.
i know i'm still an idiot and kinda slow/lazy but now, i am motivated.
like, SO motivated.
that and 2 more exams. parasitology and behavior science.
and maybe another 4 repeat exams...
yeah. i don't sound too happy.
first is of course, all the repeats. damn, what the fuck was i'm doing? tak insaf insaf.
oh well. but for this exam i do have clues about what i'm writing on the answer sheets.
thanks, past year questions!
other 1 of the whys is, i'm not going back to malaysia.
yep. no gunung korbu for me this year. it's not like i am not looking forward for it. heck, i enjoy long flights. i enjoy sleeping in the cold during transits. i enjoy...
meh. there's nothing much in going back home except my family (which i'm sure gonna miss em. kinda. not really like, emotionally miss but i will miss being together with them for raya and puasa. and maybe for everything else... or everything... whatever)
i don't really have plans here in alex besides living through the summer heat and get back on my lifts.
yeah nothing much.
okay like always i forgot what i'm gonna write here so i'll just end this post with,
"lapar la..."
not because of marks. it's just that, i suddenly realized, if i can't answer those medisl questions, how am i going to have any semblance of a doctor? i would just be another doctor wannabe who leeches other peoples money.
also, those questions, although short and somewhat vague in describing patients' signs and symptoms, somehow intrigued my mind. they've made me open my meds books and search things in the internet just for the answer. and once i've answered them, or even one of them, it feels so satisfying.
and now, i cant help but sift through some of the questions and attempt them.
i know i'm still an idiot and kinda slow/lazy but now, i am motivated.
like, SO motivated.
that and 2 more exams. parasitology and behavior science.
and maybe another 4 repeat exams...
yeah. i don't sound too happy.
first is of course, all the repeats. damn, what the fuck was i'm doing? tak insaf insaf.
oh well. but for this exam i do have clues about what i'm writing on the answer sheets.
thanks, past year questions!
other 1 of the whys is, i'm not going back to malaysia.
yep. no gunung korbu for me this year. it's not like i am not looking forward for it. heck, i enjoy long flights. i enjoy sleeping in the cold during transits. i enjoy...
meh. there's nothing much in going back home except my family (which i'm sure gonna miss em. kinda. not really like, emotionally miss but i will miss being together with them for raya and puasa. and maybe for everything else... or everything... whatever)
i don't really have plans here in alex besides living through the summer heat and get back on my lifts.
yeah nothing much.
okay like always i forgot what i'm gonna write here so i'll just end this post with,
"lapar la..."
caffeine, how do they work?!
shut the fuck up. i've learned this thing but why am i in stupor and depression???
and racking up coffee doesn't seem to work really well...
and racking up coffee doesn't seem to work really well...
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