musicians

had to admit, i do hate and despise videos of someone singing or performing.
but, i really LOVE to see and listen to a live performance regardless of the kind of musical performance or who they are.
that explains why i don't really have any music video even for the songs that i kept running in my nights and sleeps.

i also had to admit the cause of the hatred is jealousy.
it just because i feel like videos don't really show the true self or nature of the subject recorded.
weird though, it only applies for singings. not acting. (one of the whys of i hate bollywood movies.)
and instrumentals too. but where's the fun in watching a a virtual copy?
i really want to go to a live orchestra and not just some strings (though the one i''ve went here was quite nice) but the full blown one, along with all the strings and pipes and whatelse and whatnot.
and a lively maestro like the one in bibliotheca. (i want to make a reference to nodame's chiaki-sama but japanese always has a way to hyperbolic things.)

a conductor myself just now has shown that being one is super hard.
especially with CRAPPY hall, equipments (bloody mics!!!) and lack of time for practice (bloody mike!!!).
hell, we could do better and things could get much more enjoyable.
too bad i'm not an art student.
oh well. i do think i am more of an appreciator than an artist anyway.
critiques away!

on the other hand, really had to stop using "fuck"...
feel like i have been overusing it in quite a lot of occasions.
including in real life.
gonna use "bloody" instead of "fuck".
"bloody hell" instead of "what the fuck".