memories

have you ever felt this kind of feeling where you feel so comfortable, so peaceful, so... nice that you just feel the world is perfect and should just fo into an infinite loop just so that feeling stay.

i've always crave that feeling.
since my childhood.
from my childhood.

this strange dream, although loads of weird things happened, it just seem so fitting.
they were not actually out of place at all. it just there and should be there.
been almost an hour since that and i still can feel it.
still crave it. it just make me want to stay there. forever.

hanging out with those imaginary friends, around that imaginary town.
we chat, we laughed, we watched and pondered as everything went pass by.
seems boring but it never.

and streetlamps!
especially those orange ones.
looking at them as we pass by each of them on a long stretch from a moving vehicles.
pleasantly distracting. ^^

three of them, each of them always take different faces taken from the people i've met.
one always take the one that always near me.
the other one always take the face of those who i had always hanging on to.
the last one is the one that had made me laugh.

though they take different faces, i always can recognize who is who.
it's really strange but... oh well.

then later we went back home.
always heard that parting is always tearful, saddening.
always brings along the i'll-miss-you and please-don't-go feeling.
always emotional.
but not when with them.
i always feel they are not going to leave me.
never abandoning me.
always there when i need them.
i part away from them reassured.
i know i'll meet them again somewhere in my next dream.
it just bothers me when we can't meet all 4 together.
everytime.


FUCK
I HATE REALITY FOR LEAKING ALL THESE MEMORIES AWAY WITH IT'S JUNKS AND CRAPS
EVERYTHING-




i just want to remember those bit of my childhood memories, that's all.
it's so hard to remember now.
i always try not to go anywhere after those dreams.
just sit and stare there. savoring every moment of it like last meals.