fucking world!

thanks for not being a forever jerk.
thanks for giving me back my internet.
thanks for letting me post craps and stuff here. AGAIN.

it was like, 5 days i've been cut out from the rest of the world.
the first 2 days, i was stuck with nothing but crappy games and isolation.

curfew from 2pm till 8am. shit you not.
then the rest of them, lan party like no tomorrow. (literally, it was like, we're not going to see any other place other than this crappy place.)

ok wait no really i don't actually care about these whole, being-stuck-in-a-unstable-country-apparently-having-a-riot-that-was-about-toppling-their-government-thingie.

it's just, i'm quite happy that i could see the rest of the world out there.
really glad that i can finally get to express thoughts in 4chan.
really glad that i can finally (tedious. i'm just going to use blah for this for the next- you know what, forget it. i'm not going to bother explaining shit.)

ask people about if whether i'm going to go back home, for free. (thank you government)



ok again, i don't really care about all this shit. i just want to get back to my old life. slacking around, don't have to care much about my self except for porn and stuff.

there was so many things i've going on in my head during those 5 days of crappy food and not having decent place to sleep. i don't really know where to start but seriously, i'm kinda glad that i had them. either i saw things differently or saw things i didn't even know they were there. i'll just go with the first thing that came around. let see...


suddenly, so many people cared about me. facebook, email, missed calls.
some few close friends i've had, relatives, those were expected. but suddenly some past 5 years distant acquaintances expressed their concern and all.
my thought? my interest in social interaction was renewed. i am looking forward to meeting new people. i don't really care about any ulterior motives. knowing that i am not alone really fires me up to meet new people. i wont openly embrace being a socialite but i won't curse life if i were to acquaint strangers.

then again, the world ain't all about me and my life. i thought i was somewhat special for being a student stuck in the middle of another country political upheaval.
guess what? i am just one of them students stuck in the middle of another country political upheaval.
i've look into other dwellings that i had frequented. no it's not about "oh please save them poor students in egypt!".
nope. they still talking about their usual porn and stuff.
oh well. my thought? even though i am kinda gifted with some things, i'm not that special. but this leads to something else! which is:


(somehow i loose it while looking at something else. i'll continue about this at some other time.)


i am begin to have a second thought whether pursuing a medical degree is the right choice. so many strange news about me having to restart my degree. what would that mean? second chance. and no. not in medicine. i've thought about taking business or account or even law. or maybe help my father manages all of his farms at kampung.
i don't know, as long as not medic.
well, that was the extreme. maybe doing medicine in malaysia isn't a bad thing either.
my thought? now, i believe that there is always a second chance for everything. screwed up big? it's ok. ada hikmah.


to be continued...