Please shut the fuck up

That is me cursing me.
Yep. I seriously have to stop lying or risk having a complicated life full of unreasonable lies.
Fuck that. Even by being honest could do that.

I always have this idea going in my head that, "if i'm gonna lie, make it true then."
Managed to do that for all 22 years of living.

But i dont't know, fuck you pp. Aku tak tau ape ko nak tunjuk kat aku malam tu but seriously, the way these guys approach girls is way too crude for me to apprehend.
Tactless.
"Hi. Saya nak kenal, boleh?"
What the fuck!?

Fuck this shit but thanks to you guys, i've realized what exactly i've been doing to get my share of girls all these time.
ALWAYS PUT GIRLS AS SECONDARY OBJECTIVE.
Never as primary because i'll get all awkward and in the end, i'll just bail out of it and end up like a jerk.
Never lessen the priority of this objective as, i won't have the motivation to continue the current primary ones.
So they didn't approach me? Their loss.
I won't get any? Lots of girls that are actually interested enough to directly go to me and try to start a conversation. None? Not the right place/time then.

Either that is the right way to have a girl or i'm just not really cut it to follow however these guys do it.
I admit i'm not a smooth talker.
I think i've cured my nervousness around girls. That is including pretty girls. It just that, i don't really know what to know about a girl. Most of the things a female would be interested to share with me are boring anyway. And vice versa...

Gah enough of that. I just hate new things, that is all. Being single and a quite loner is confortable enough for me right now. To change that would means effort and i'm just too lazy for that right now.

Speaking about changes, FUCK YOU GUMBY!!!
Fuck with all the rebels and shit happened lately.
Damn la mubarak... Turun lambat sket boleh tak?
Here i thought i would have 3 months of time to do something about myself right now.
13 march? That is like, barely 1 month! You've ruined The Plan!!!

I don't know. I've planned many things for the presumed 3 months of breaks. Learn to ride a bike, hone my driving skillz (cewah!), have a guitar basic, and bulk up for the actual summer.
Yeah yeah i know i should have done them for my 18th birthday but hey, better late than never eh?
Haih... I've been taking life really easy for the past 12 years. Being a 22 without much mating-oriented skills really eating up my self esteem. Ok not really that much la but still, i really could do better.

Semua sebab malas nak berubah. Apa nak jadi ni? *in a wise grandpa tone. Or something like that. Whatever.*

Amik ko muhasabah diri sket.

Anyway, all the evacuation ordeal, they are not really that sucks. Hell! I might say, they are quite a nice experience too!
Sape tak suke? Makan free, xyah fikir banyak, xyah buat kerja, no lectures, classess, assignments, having good time with friends all day.
One thing though, being uncertain about things, especially life, really stressing me out.
Thank god i've already know when my classes gonna start.
No seriously, not knowing things is a major blunder. Specifically, things that already took efforts. Like, exam results and dates.

Makes me want to be a 12 ye-
upsr.... Fuck i had a shitty life ke?
Can i be that loner asian kid in a american highschool? Forever? *hint. Vampire, or werewolf, or whatever*

By the way, writing on the internet on a ipad is cool as hell. Too bad for the shitty safari. Can't scroll down? No spellcheck?!
Are you fucking shitting me?!