shits happen

a girl died today.

no. i don't know any bit about her except that the possibility that i might have met her and said,
"meh"


CO poisoning.
bloody hell? that thing don't kill you at the moment of contact for fuck sake.
it needs time to take effect on ALL the blood cells and then the brain.
i don't know how fast she died but from things i've heard, seems like she took 1 hour to go brain dead and dead.
kinda fast. that would means like, LOADS of CO.
faulty gas water heater. you would need a really faulty one and to not realize that in time would be like, what? (though she could have fainted from a fall or something but to fall and faint would means a lot of noise generated that could alert SOMEBODY. or maybe her house is THAT BIG that everyone's room is A MILE from each other or something. whatever.)

no i posted this out of a sudden not because i cared much.
electrical heater ftw! (inb4blownupheater. fuck. i could have faced death's fingers a couple of times from those electrical shocks i got switching off the mofo.)
it just that, shits happen.

and to think it was someone that was this close (haha yeah, some random girl being in the same year and was in 1 section before mine that i could have met her in person but just couldn't bother to remember is close enough.) to die just like that seems really REALLY intimidating.
ok not really. couldb't bother to suddenly relate myself to some random girl just because she died..
fact is, her house was just a few blocks from mine! less than a mile, a death happens! THE HORROR!!! O_O

and here i am, messing with things rather than study for tomorrow's exam while other people were at some places praying for her soul.
i would be surprised if there was anyone who would baca tahlil for me if i died.
heck, anyone knowing me dead would have been good enough already.

hell, it makes me wonder, how does it feel like, to die?
personally, i would say, "lucky her".
she died in her sleep. painless.
except maybe for the place. could have been better. (toilet? seriously?)

if someone else's freak accident could make me feel like this, i don't really want to imagine how would it feel to actually make someone die by any of my incompetence later if i managed to be a doctor.

and wow did she done miracles, exam got postpo-
what the fuck man?!... should have been more SENSITIVE about this.

al-fatihah to her anyway. or whatever.