managed to have lunch with her

but i didn't get the skippy-jumpy feeling i should get when having conversations with her. or at least that was what i've been told.
maybe not yet. i'll let it go on for another week.
and she invited me to her home party BUT...
i declined it.
was it right for me to put dota with friends on top of the list?

oh i forgot. never turn around. if a selfish bastard i'm gonna be, then let it be.
it isn't like i'm gonna enjoy the party anyway. it would gonna be just like any other party i've been to.
makan-makan, dengar orang lain cakap benda yang aku tak faham.
kalau nasib baik, dapat chat dengan dia je.
kalau nasib baik...
if not, buat penat je.

screwed up enough?

and her friend. the one i had my interest once, the one who actually showed her feelings, she looks pissed off.
the GUILT...
it wasn't like she ain't pretty or things like that. she's cute. but sparks come on and off pretty randomly. and 2 1/2 months of no contact wasn't really helping.
but wth?! it wasn't like we had any kind of close relationship to begin with.
what with the "pfft. scums." look?
okay, i know i'm just speculating. though i really hope it was just an overreaction.
wait, now i looked like i'm overthinking.
sigh... time, do your magic. please.

and mike, thanks for butting in just at the right time.
u were a total lifesaver back then. macam mujahid.
but fuck u for not reminding me of my unfinished burger. (lol, jk. not really :P)
the wasted protein...

now, bracing myself for the gossip storm...