and i prevailed! (continued)

parasitology exam was so-so.
though all those long, confusing names of each just making me sick.
speaking of sick, back to appendicitis.
i don't really have much to say about it except,
my pain threshold has diminished over time, i think i've gone lazy with all those willpower endurance trainings.
no. it's none of those specific uber hard exercises.
it's just life.

contradicting myself, is a little habit of mine i just can't really grow out of it.
example,
i always thought, "people lie" (actually, it has a more of a description for it but i just refer it to house's) but yet,
.
.
what did i just say?

fine... i don't really think.
it takes too much effort to think about something that would surely happen.
like, reality for example. a girl who i stalked posted "reality works, so it's boring.", or something to that effect.
ok i don't feel like finishing this.
*sigh*
these self thought provoking sure are tedious.

i have realized now!
i am too repulsive. or is it impulsive.?
goddamnit my english have failed me...
thank god i don't really have a psychopathic personality.
most of the things i did were harmless. but admittedly stupid.
heck. now i don't even think i am impulsive.
more like, impulsive mind. i think of something, 50% probability of me doing it.
wait... isn't that impulsive? or is it?

at times, i do think words just don't cut it.
i hate using pictures as it contains so many words but without explanations.
vlogs require a webcam and too much efforts.
voice blog, i don't really like my voice.

ever had times where you really have something to say out loud yet having trouble constructing that thoughts of yours as it was too scrambled up, explaining shits over 3 times couldn't even make em comprehensible.
feels like, your thoughts was in clouds and mist.
i'm having one. >.<