I don't think i would want wings

Who am i kidding?!
Fuck yeah! Wings!

Instead of sitting here writing some rants, i could've just fly around up above the sea, spreading my wings surfing the winds.

I wonder what it would be like to rush through clouds, diving down and swirl back up!

Fuck, i don't need wings!
Gimme a broom and some magics!

That reminds me of my childhood.
Rowling pretty much ruined my it. I waited for those letters to come!
But of course, I'm not a British citizen...

That aside, i don't know if i would actually fly if i ever have one. I mean, i can't stop thinking what would happen if i cramped mid flight. How to land? Changing course?
If learning to wing it is as same as learning to ride, I'd better have immortality too. Fast regeneration and what not.

Maybe someday I'll learn how to ride a kite.

Now i realize, I've kinda spent most of my life waiting for the impossibles.
Want to know how i went through my boarding school? The thing that kept me going and living?
The thought/fantasy that someday, some female robot would come and give me some technologically advanced watch or implant, download herself into that and be my jarvis, with the ability to manipulate space and physic.
Some other time i imagined a puteri bunian came into my dream, proposed and I'll get all the perks of having a magical wife.
On a more, upsetting time, having some succubus sucking my life away or makes me her personal demonic slave is enough to purge my despair.

There's a time where i just read through the Qoran at the back of the surau.....

Thinking back, i only run from conflicts...
Pathetic!

I think, the moment i register myself at langkawi by myself, that's when i think,

"screw the world"

My head was clear but there's nothing left for motivation.
I just deal with shits and man up.
Half of the time...
My self worth was pretty shit too.
Until i meet, people.
I realise, being selfish and having high self regard is the only way to go through most of life.
Being responsible to myself.
Having my own pride and honour.

Ah well. Time for class.